Well this one is a little tricky because I can’t say I’ve been let down by a hero. I’ve looked up to my grandparents for strength to get through everything in life. They are who I’m afraid to let down or even disappoint. Though I can’t say I know of a time off hand that. I’ve spent most of day 14 thinking this over and honestly still have this little bit. Must be why it didn’t get posted on time.
This one is simple. I could easily say Oj because that is true to a point, I’ve never tried to live without him and I hope I never have to. No the answer that I’m going with is my other half, the Mr. that I’ve been through hell and back with …. J. I have left 4 different times in the 6 years we’ve been together and each time I come back. I would say before that it was cause of Oj and to a point this is true. But from April – June I spent the 3 months living with my grandma, sister, her 2 babies, and occasionally Oj while we waited the 6 months Il law requires for a non contested divorce. It was on J’s birthday that I offically told him that I was wrong. I couldn’t do this anymore and I needed him in my life. It wasn’t just because we’ve spent our whole (short) adult life together or because we have a child together. He’s my other half and gets me like no one else ever probably could. I’m not perfect or anything like that but he doesn’t care. I realized the problem of all of it and it was we didn’t know how to allow the growth we were naturally doing as individual people to meld together with the growth of parent hood and marriage. It’s not perfect but it’s a daily work in progress that I know is right for me. I love him and definitely don’t want to be without him ever again.